does anyone here besides me put ketchdown on their hot dogs
nothing much what’s updog with you
"And it’s been a while but I still feel the same."
there were endless nights shivering
as my bones frosted over
and I could see nothing
(the ice kept my eyelids shut)
remember that it hurt to hold a pen
in numb bony fingers
and I couldn’t move my toes
except in a shower so hot
my body turned red.
remember that it hurt just to
sit down, stand up, lie down.
remember sit-ups on hard floors
sent agony up my spine.
remember hours lost in supermarkets
but don’t go back.
because sometimes I still long for it, in spite of everything. I remind myself why I’m better where I am. (via lydiateasedale)
When I was 14 or so I was at my worst (lowest weight and longest fasting), and I honestly didn’t notice a lot of these things, possibly because I was so young or possibly because I was so anxious I was less self-aware. But in all of my relapses since I turned 18, I feel some symptoms after just one or two days. I hate to think about how much damage I did to my body over the years, but at least I can thank God now for helping me get to this point where I rarely struggle with it anymore.
The More we value things, the less we value ourselves
I’ll leave you with this tidbit. 73% of all female characters in the 100 highest grossing films of 2013 were Caucasian, 14% were African American, 5% were Latina, 3% were Asian, and another 3% were aliens or fantasy races. Yes. In 2013, American theater audiences were about as likely to see a woman of an animal species or completely made up race as they were to see an Asian woman.
I think we definitely need to work on representation too, but this isn’t that shocking considering 72.4% of the American population is white. So 73% of them being white in movies is pretty dang accurate representation of minority/non-minority. It’s possible that the other percentages are less accurate, someone would have to help fill me in about that.
Secret War in Laos
From 1964 to 1973, the U.S. dropped more than two million tons of ordnance on Laos during 580,000 bombing missions—equal to a planeload of bombs every 8 minutes, 24-hours a day, for 9 years – making Laos the most heavily bombed country per capita in history.
Each year there continue to be over 100 new casualties in Laos. Close to 60% of the accidents result in death, and 40% of the victims are children.
Between 1995 and 2013, the U.S. contributed on average $3.2M per year for UXO clearance in Laos; the U.S. spent $13.3M per day (in 2013 dollars) for nine years bombing Laos.
The U.S. spent as much in three days bombing Laos ($51M, in 2010 dollars) than it spent for clean up over 16 years ($51M).
Photos by Andrew Mcconnell
People are so accustom to dysfunction that they forget what’s healthy and what’s not.
When I knew you were coming,
I danced for you.
I was as excited as a big sister could be.
When I learned you loved music,
I played for you.
You moved to be closer to me.
When I heard you were a girl.
I sewed for you.
I wanted to make you my personal doll.
But when you were kicking,
I felt for you.
That’s when I loved you most of all.
When your mother was bleeding,
I worried for you.
The road to the hospital became 3 times as long.
In the hallway,
I waited for you.
But soon you were long gone.
That one last day,
I sang for you.
I know that you could hear me.
You were never born,
but you were so alive.
As great as a sister could be.
This is incredible…
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